:: kemalasan melanda ::

safely arrived Unisel this evening..tomorrow ade paper Edu Admin..theories! yeah, mmg aku rajin nk membaca semua notes die..Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku mls..tp ku kuatkan gak hati utk study..sbb risau sok aku xtaw nk jwb pe..lecturer dh bg tips, utk memudahkan kami menjawab..so grab the opportunity to score! hrmm..tp ubat yg aku amek setiap 4-6jam nih membuatkn mata ku cepat tertido..penangan ubat katakan..klu x mkn, xley study..klu mkn, pun xley study..dh xtaw cmne dh..tawakal jela..dh la esok paper kt dewan IPIS..panas ya amat! harap2 blh bertahan slama 3jam..hrmm..jgn la demam ye(talk to myself)..yg penting, aku kne kuatkn hati, semangat dan diri utk bertarung esok pagi..walaupun aku lapar..hahaha..sedihnye ble xley nk mkn spt biasa..bubur je utk alas perut..aku pn dh naek muak..tp nk wat cmne, kne alas perut dl b4 amek ubat..hrmm..cpt2 laa sembuh..

31 October 2011

Bermulanya penderitaan :: gigi bongsu gatal nk kuar time aku nk final exam..sumpah! mmg skit..btol org ckp, skt smpi blh membunuh..bkn sakit sampai membunuh diri sendiri tp bunuh org..mana x nye, sakit yg amat..teruji kesabaran ni haa...ekotkan hati, nk je tlg kuarkn gigi yg lambat sgt nak settle nih..masuk hari ni, dh 4 ary aku thn..first paper utk final exam ni ialah jumaat ni..x blh nk concentrate ngan study kalau sakit je memanjang..pipi lak dah membengkak..muke aku dh besar sblh dh..dh la x lawa, tambah lg hodoh! camne aku nak bertahan lam dewan exam ni..ya Allah, tlg la permudahkan perjuangan ku menjawab soalan exam nanti..kurangkan sakit gigi ni..

Dream Car

Porsche Cayenne Turbo S

Meet my baby :)

Front view

Side view

Back view

The Engine

Final Exam, Final Sem, Final Year

yes! finally,this the end of my study life..

But im sure that i'll miss the moments as a student..

and i wanna shout to the world
"i settle with my degree!"
ngeeeee :p

:: Meet My PRETTY & HANDSOME ::

Let me introduce you to my PRETTY & HANDSOME guys

they're looking awesome and

hell yeah, attractive!

one PRETTY

Jang Geun Suk

( pretty isn't he?)

two HANDSOME

Chad Michael Murray

( i HEART him so much)

Won Bin

(Reminds me of someone)

*what is their similarities?? yeah, finger on their lips!

:: the Books weekend ::

I found myself gone crazy once i entered the hall..soooo many books..(speechless)..
I forgot about my friends, surrounding, environment and people..what i saw, only BOOKS!
I kept moving from one section to another sections..from cookery to fiction, from fiction to bibliography then non-fictions and so on..
1st day, i bought 5 books..2nd day, i bought another 4 books..but i cant find the books that im looking for, Mahathir..
Disappointed..next BBWB, i will come on the first day and hope that i will find more books i want..

:: week two of Ramadhan

pejam celik pejam celik dah 2 mggu kite berpuasa kan?? seronok x?? of course laa..x terasa dah nak raya..puasa thn ni special ckit..sbb time puasa, aku bekerja! hahaha..layan karenah bdk2 skolah yg ntah pape..sabor jela..tp aku still ngan perangai rock aku tuh..xde suara nak menjerit, aku guna pergerakkan tgn dan kaki ku utk mengajar bdk2 nih..xpe, my last day, i'll ask for forgiveness..marah sbb sayang..sayang sbb dowg pandai sbnrnye..tp xtaw nak gune otak tuh camne..and hati tuh ngah memberontak..nak tunjuk samseng..ntah pape laa pengaruh bdk2 tuh dpt..parents at home, please la jg tingkah laku and ambik taw hal anak2 kt luar umah and skolah..sedey je tgk..nnt jgn nyesal lak kalau anak tuh x jadi manusia..

** penat sbnrnye melayan karenah bdk2 yg ntah pape nih...*sigh

hello thursday night!

it's been a long time i didn't share anything here..
been busy, very busy..
the school, the students, the lesson plan and also the thesis..tired..
lately, i sighed most of the time..dont know how to describe the feelings..what a life..
that's the only word spitted from my mouth..
at least, i still have something to say isn't it??

hellooo :)

sorry for not updating for quite some time..kinda bz doing unsettled things..
well, as a trainee teacher, this the life we will pay..
huh! i dun have my life anymore!! *sigh
stress week..there's a lot of thing happened which really2 menguji kesabaran ku..
the students, the school environment, the people around me, the gadget and what so called stupid thing..
yeah! i hate u man! he scolded and judged me...and now i tried so hard to keep him out of my mind, my world, my heart, my life and everything..coz i hate him damn much! -end :p

** i live my life and my life still goes on with smile...

Sunday's Mood

today, i woke up a bit late, i guess..
doing nothing at home but today's plan is i'm going to cook Nasi Ayam Hainan for my dearest housemate and friends..
while waiting for my housemate buying the ingredients, aku pun menyemak kerje2 sekolah my students..banyaknyee...*sigh
..oh no, tomorrow is MONDAY! for sure, i have to go to school and start a new week, and teach them another chapter in English form 1 syllabus..
im not teaching English but Bahasa Melayu coz i have to speak in malay..
grammar in BM??

Quote for Today

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew...

last day with osha :(

pagi ni, aku and arep g carik tanah utk tanam osha..hari terakhir aku dpt peluk die..aku rs kehilangan sgt..aku xnak nanges..aku cuba tahan..terbukti mmg hati aku degil..aku berjaya tahan airmata aku..bkn tanda aku x sedih tp aku xnk tunjuk kt org kelemahan aku..pusing nye pusing, kami terjumpa tpt yg sgt sesuai dan strategik..dari tpt parking kereta kami, kami dah blh nmpk tempat tuh..arep pn mula mengorek tanah and aku still memangku osha dlm kete..ble dah ckup dalam, kami pun tanam osha..beratnya hati aku utk lepaskan die..aku berfikir, lps ni camne hari2 aku tanpa die..hrmmm...hati aku, xde sp yg taw..

** aku sgt2 terasa kehilangan osha.. :'(

Quote for Today

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment

today's mood

so tired but have to wake up early..
to settle my lesson plan..hrmm..
sleepy, tired and messy!
now nk story sikit on what happened today..
today, even dh cuti for 2 weeks but still ade gak cikgu yg x dtg skolah..
so relief class le jawabnye..
and i have two double period's class today..my 1st class, still not started the lesson..
i gave them a game and they like it and give their full cooperation..
even the naughtiest one..
but still don't know, what kind of present i should give them tomorrow..hrmm..*still thinking*..
my 2nd class, horrible! so mcm cacing kepanasan...very100x hard to control! *sigh*..

** now thinking of what activity i wanna do for tomorrow's lesson..

lesson plan :(

Done with my 1st class lesson plan..my 2nd class?? owh, i've no idea anymore! i cant forcing my brain to keep thinking of the activities!! ok, time to sleep..*sigh

** will be continue tomorrow..nyte all :)

facebook's account deactivated :(

yeah! i deactivated the account.. i don't know why..but maybe will reactivate again, someday..don't know when but later..

** now i leave and never look back, as u wish for!

words invented by my housemate, cik ruzarifsufia !

the new words are. . . . . . . . . .

termomotermos : : terminator

chrisanthemenemenum : : chrisanthemum

mututabak : : murtabak

** sian budak nih. . . lidah terlebih belit. . . hahahahahaa

fever. . . please go away :'(

still not feeling well..please go away oh fever..please...i like it when u come during my break but not now..i have to go to work this monday..

** close the door, have some rest, sleep, keep quiet, not active but still not enough..

Quote for Today

It is better to go for someone who loves you, rather than someone who you love.

** i love u but i hate u. . .

i hate you. . . so???

i hate you because i'm hurt..

i hate you because i'm too emotional..

i hate you because i don't know you anymore..

i hate you because i mad at you..

i hate you, for real !

Caramel Custard Pudding. . .

the ingredients :

caramel

40g sugar

10ml hot water

custard

200ml fresh milk

10g sugar

1/2 tsp vanilla essence

1 whole egg

2 egg yolks

30g sugar

the methods :

1. Caramel: Melt sugar in a sauce pan, stir until golden brown. Once it starts bubbling, stir in hot water then remove from heat.
   
   
2. Lightly grease the moulds, then fill each mould with about 1 teaspoon of caramel. Swirl the mould to coat bottom of mould when the caramel is still hot. Set aside for later use.
   
   
3. Custard: Bring together milk and sugar, bring to boil on low heat then stir in vanilla essence. Turn the heat off and set aside for later use.
   
   
4. In a mixing bowl, lightly whisk eggs with sugar. Then pour in milk in stream, whisk rapidly until well blended.
   
   
5. Strain the mixture then fill each mould with mixture, and steam on low heat for 15-20 minutes. If using oven, place moulds in a tray then fill tray with water. Cover tray with aluminium foil. Bake at preheated oven, 140ºC for 25-30 minutes.
   
   
6. Turn the heat off, let puddings stay in the steamer or oven for further 10 minutes.
   
   
7. Chill before serving.
   
   
   
   
   ** i already tried it..it's so damn delicious when it serves chill.. :)

the night life. . . sometimes . . .

sometimes, i used to live like i don't have any life..

sometimes, i like to spend all my time with my friends..

sometimes, i will do what i want to do..

sometimes, i just go with the flow..

yeah, i do have a nightlife..

enjoying myself with my friends at somewhere..

not to commit crime but only to enjoy my free time..

i don't start a fight even a battle..

it just a night to have fun..

it is wrong and it is not wrong..

bear in mind,

if u have the experience,

then u'll know how to handle your junior to be :)

** flying kiss to aen, arep, yam, afoi and not forgotten mc fizree & vdj kooler..thanx 4 d nyte!

talk to myself again. . . .

Letting go doesn't mean giving up..it means moving on. 
It's one of the hardest things a person can do..
starting at birth, we grasp onto anything we can get our hands on, and hold on as if we will cease to exist when we let go..
we feel that letting go is giving up, quitting and that as well all know is cowardly..
but as we grow older, we are forced to change our way of thinking..
we are forced to realize that letting go means accepting things that cannot be..
it means maturing and moving on..
no matter how hard u have to fight yourself to do so.. :)

resepi untuk today ye!

today, i and my housemate nak main masak2..we plan to bake a cake..not bake but double boil it..i got the receipies from my mom actually..it's one of my favourite cake..ok, let's do it together!

Kek Belacan (no belacan included)

the ingredients :

12 ouns Butter

10 nos eggs

5 table spoons wheat flour

3 table spoons cocoa powder

1 bottle (small size) Horlicks

1 can (medium size) sweetened milk

1 glass (duralex) raw sugar

3 tea spoons browning sugar

the methods :

1. Blend together butter and sugar until the mixture's light.

2. Then add in eggs (one by one), blend again until its mix beautifully.

3. Add in sweetened milk, horlicks, flour and cocoa powder, blend it slowly.

4. Lastly, dont forget to add in browning sugar.

5. Finally, fill it in the cake tray and double boil it until it cooks.

Ready to eat! Enjoy!

Bon Appetite :)

my deepest secret..maloooo...

for this while..i really like this one guy..not because he's handsome but

because of his jokes..he's super good entertainer..always makes me laugh..

when i'm in dilemma or in sadness, i'll watch his vids and laugh heavenly..

but unfortunately, he's taken..nvm then, just hoping that he's happy

with his life and found happiness in his marriage..

wanna see who's the guy??

Let's check it out yaww!!

JOHAN..hahahaha :D

shoes..my best companion :)

the sexiness by Zara's collection..

i feel goooooddd.... wink wink :D

the superb collection hun...

the gorgeous feeling :)

sorry for the stupid things the lyric

Sometimes we wish for the better

When we have it good as it gets

Sometimes the grass isn't greener

Sometimes we find out we forget

Sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool

Sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog

Sometimes I do stupid things to you

When I really don't mean it all

Sometimes a man

Just don't be a man

It's not an excuse

It's just how it is

Sometimes the wrong

Don't know that they're wrong

Sometimes the strong

Ain't always so strong

Sometimes a girl

Is gon' be a girl

She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world

God knows I don't mean to give it to you

So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do

Oh so sorry, oh no, oh so sorry

Sometimes I wish I was smarter

Wish I was a bit more like you

Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute

You live to regret when it's through

Well, sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool

And sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog

Sometimes I do stupid things to you

When I really didn't mean it all

Sometimes a man

Just don't be a man

**you, sorry for the stupid things i do to you..

the target for this year yaw!!

time is precious! Fossil collection

(found it already) :))

i want this! for my raya this year :)

Vintage Bag from Fossil

Guess tote collection :)

** already survey for it and also found it..wait for me ok darls! :p

Quote for Today

There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go..

having a nightmare :'(

i woke up early today..just because i had a very worst nightmare ever..i believe, mimpi adalah mainan tidur..Ya Allah, lemah semangat aku..hrmm..im very thankful that i still can breath with the air which You have lend to us..Thank You Allah..im happy, even it's in my dream, i still can recite clearly Ayat Kursi..Sesungguhnya Kau masih menyayangi ku..

*tapi hatiku masih degil. :'(

self shut up!

im shutting up myself again today..keep myself in my room, facing the lappy, letting the finger's dancing around, thinking of someone, cleaning up the room, looking at the books, laying down and keeping quiet..and suddenly, the idea came across..

Quote for Today

Life is like dancing. If we have a big floor, many people will dance. Some will get angry when the rhythm changes. But life is changing all the time.